rey's ramblings

I crossed the bridge at 4:31 PM

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

hAmLeT pLaY
LMFAO. There were some parts where it
was damn funny. Going from confusing beginning,
to serious conversations, to insane humour
and then to tragedy and tragedy and
EVERYBODY DIES IN THE END.
ophelia died from being psycho.
her father was strangled by hamlet.
the queen drank poison cup by
accident! hamlet stabbed brother
with poison sword.
king got killed anyway by
BOTH poisoned sword and drink.
and then hamlet drank poisoned
cup too -.- horatio is clever.
WHOOPEEEE.

anyway. stoopidity. ms eu was
sleeping. tien was sleeping.
i kinda fell asleep for 15 mins at
one go : P. hehe.

CHANGING MUSIC. to white flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be (x3)

I crossed the bridge at 11:11 PM

Monday, February 23, 2004

AH F*CK.
im missing a post here -.-
the latest one.
ack i prob forgot to publish it.
so all the stuff is gone.

anywaaaay. the post was about
rhyming o.0 Heyy. i rhymed a lot
in the unsaved post. ACK.
wasted.

changing the song? my immortal
is kinda mournful. like what they
play at funerals. lol.
im looking for a song in the meantime.

main picc up there. last samurai's getting
a bit old but anyway there isnt really a
movie poster, pic that i could put up now.

like cold mountain ?? nicole kidman and
jude law kissing is like half of it.
mystic river? nah.
and there isnt really any other.
"honey" is too cheesy a movie.
but i could do "monster" it looks psychotic.
charlize theron's surgery gone wrong! XD

I crossed the bridge at 8:51 PM

Friday, February 20, 2004

whoa woo whoa whoa woo whoa.
yeaa yeaa yeaa oh oh yeaa.
this love has taken its toll on me
she said goodbye too many times before.

"This Love" by Maroon 5
just sounds so funkay.

LALALA. Im about to go for
the ncc camp at amoy quee.
yea. so im gonna leave the house like
quite soon. packed up my bag ready
ta go for the camp.
ill be at the camp until sunday afternoon =(
no weekend for me. stupid time to put a camp.

WELL GTG THEN BYE.

I crossed the bridge at 6:00 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

MUUUUSIC.

yea ive got music at last since
like the last time i wanted it
last year. a lot of things have
changed since but heck.
if you dont want it, you can turn
off the speakers but i guess that'd
be a bit selfish. Dont worry anyway
the music only plays one round.
then it stops so yeah.

give me feedback on the music.

if more than 2 people give the same
suggestion then ill take it into consideration.
ill try not to plug in too loud music cause
it gets irritating and distracting.
unless a lot of people request for it lah.

anyway the lyrics for the current song:
( i guess you know what it is already)

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
me, me.....

I crossed the bridge at 7:19 PM

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

Just another day.
*jumps* okaaay. today i got THE bag.
my mum bought an op bag. i told her no op.
but she did anyway. erggggh but anyway,
the logo is quite small and unnoticeable so yay.
ITS NEW. THATS IMPORTANT.

Dont let people rule your fashion sense.
unless its really really screwy like er.
Afro with earring with mascara with TIGHT pink shirt.
and mottled green trousers... and you are a boy.
so THATS bad fashion sense.

anyway thank you for all those who said "happy birthday"
personally, unlike stupid class celebration where everybody
was forced to. I guess they were quite unwilling.

ANYWAY.

think think. why does music always seem to connect
with your current mood. and the lyrics with your
current situation and somehow or other when
im happy theres happy music and when i aint there isnt.
funny. uncanny. its like that.

I crossed the bridge at 5:47 PM

Monday, February 16, 2004

BIIIIIIRTHDAY.
oh well my birthday was yesterday.
SO. WHAT I WANT.
IS.....
mineral water.
right.
JOKING LAH

erm......

is my handphone contract up?
*stares inquisitively at starhub*
if it is then i want newwww phone.
my phone is SO outdated.
ok maybe not really but yeaa its cracked!
THAT makes it outdated.

i want an mp3 player hokay. drowning in music
rox. LOSE YOURSELF BABYYY. or whatever.
as long as can store 250+ songs can liao.

iiiii want a new bag. my bag is like 3 years old.
so primary school-ish. I want those duffel bags.
like a sports one. not too big of course. gotta
bring to school what. or maybe those surfbrand
bagss.

AND A NEW WALLET!

AND errr actually thats all yay.
i doubt any of above will be fulfilled so yeah.
Just saying as it is.
*bump* whee.

I crossed the bridge at 5:52 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2004

At the MTV Asia Awards!

Firstly, i must apologise to nat for not finding the
ticket in time for her. Sorry!

Basically, it was REALLY REALLY chaotic there.
People were mobbed for a ticket.
Queues stretched all over the outside waiting area.
Got in at last when i found my ticket.
haha what a waste! I went to get a drink from the
nearby leisurepark thereby missing the first 10 mins.

Yay! Staccie Orrico performed. In her nurse uniform!
"There's gotta be more to life"!
Simple Plan played out "Perfect", then
halfway rocked on to"Addicted".
Gareth Gates duet with Siti Nurhaliza(best artist from Malaysia)
singing "Say It Isnt So".
And Black Eyed Peas had a grand finale with "Shut Up",
"Where is the Love"and "Hey Mama" as an extra after the show ended.
Other performances were from the J-pop princess BoA which was
like really sort of disco-beat sorta music with a LOT of fireworks.
Sugababes peformed a really slow "Too Lost In You".
Just before the Thai singer Bird Thongchai Mcintyre's peformance,
3 fireballs came out from the topbox behind and zoomed across
the ceiling, exploding above the stage! Haha! so cool!

I was standing right next to the projector that displayed all the
words and the computer that was processing all the words.
I could see what all the stars were going to say...
Haha and basically they keep on saying
"Im honoured to have the pleasure of presenting the
Best so-and-so award, here are the nominees"

Haha! So Funny!

I hate those irritating whistling preludes, to all those award
presentations and peformances, they had on the screen
showing some half-naked angels prancing around.
What a waste of time.
And quite stupid actually. How many times was love mentioned?
Haha i lost count.

Here are some of the winners:

Best Male Artist: Gareth Gates
Best Female Artist: Christina Aguilera
Best Breakthrough: Tatu (Yuck! I was hoping for evanescence)
Best Thai Artist: Bird Thongchai Mcintyre
Best Taiwan Artist: A*Mei
Best Hongkong Artist: Sammi Cheng
Best Malaysian Artist: Siti Nurhaliza
Best Singapore Artist: Stefanie Sun
Best Pop Act: Blue (yuck again why couldnt they give it to B.E.P?)

Inspiration Award: Anita Mui
Asian Movie Award: Michelle Yeoh (o.0)
Lifetime Achievement Award: Mariah Carey

And Mariah Carey popped out of the centrestage to
get her award! Haha that was damn surprising.

Overall, it was quite good la. Just a lot of techinical hiccups
like the presenters pausing to look at the screen
(Now you know they arent pausing to act cool)
and the microphone not working. But i think they edited it out.
so yeah haha.

I crossed the bridge at 2:41 PM

Friday, February 13, 2004

"I run away but it always seems the same."

Is it good to run away from life?
Maybe. Maybe not.

Is there such thing as love at first sight?
Even if there is, does it last forever?
Can you ever be friends again with your ex/friend?

How much power do beautiful people really have?
Is it all superficial?

Are there things you should never say in a relationship?

Do you have to play games to make a relationship work?
Like avoid, get them thinking? Regretting? Wanting?

Such thought-provoking questions.

I crossed the bridge at 11:53 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

sigh. one moment like this.
never forever.
is it that more people actually like me then
i think so.... or more people hate me then
i think so. but well a lot of people hate me
already so it isnt much of a difference.
ITS ALL HIDDDDDEN MANX. if you like, love, care,
SHOW your concern. dont hide it. if you dont have
any dont fake. yuppppppp.
WHEE.
weird feelings. im happy, sad, bored, angry
at myself all the same time.
pffft. a result of long-term confusion.

An extract of heyyyy ya lyrics. cheesy but yea

"We've been together
Ohh, we've been together
But seperate's always better when there's feelings
InvooooooOOOOOOOoooooooOOOOOOooooooOOOOOlved
If what they say is ('Nothing is forever')
Then what makes, Then what makes, Then what makes
Then what makes, Then what makes LOOVVEEE?
(Love exception) So why you, why you
Why you, why you, why you are we so in denial
When we are not happy heeeerrreeee...
Y'all don't want me here you just wanna dance"

yay this kinda means a lot. uh-huuuuuuuuuh.

I crossed the bridge at 7:53 PM

Saturday, February 07, 2004

just changed the main pic.
its last samurai now. in the middle of combat.
hmm. the quality is much better compared to
the previous LOTR one. its more clear, like digital
format sorta. even the cinema sometimes has
those blotches on the screen. i like the way
he stands out. realise that? the fighting in
the background is sorta slightly blurred on
purpose so that the camera centres on him.

ANYWAY.

i was told that ive never tried lifting up my head.
and thats why im pathetic. and thats why some
people detest me. is it.
why is it then that when i try to stand up against
people im labelled as "egoistic". WOW.
so people dont want me to be egoistic or pathetic.
sounds so much like scooter girl from american idol 3.
kiddy = bad. mature = also bad.
PFFT.

the next time i try not to be "pathetic" and i get blamed
for it. lets see. wish that i had a video cam with me.
how fun. time for some "show & TELL".

I crossed the bridge at 11:21 PM

Friday, February 06, 2004

hmmm some films i want to watch over the year.

Alexander
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Harry Potter (aah. i dont know why i want to watch this
but this one's gonna be diff. from the previous ones.
its a new director. one that previously directed a film
about teenage sexual exploits. go figure.)
Punisher
Shrek 2
Spider-man 2
Troy
Van Helsing

yay. its not as if im some dumb action flick geek or anything
but sometimes unrealistic action makes you forget about
the gritty realism of life. sigh.

Why is it your best friends go all out to hate you when they
become your enemies. Its a strange fact of life. Maybe its
dealing with the withdrawal. I dunno. Ive never really let
go of any friend. They always get the upper hand and
push me away first.

Hypocrites. yes everybody has been a hypocrite at least
once in their lives. but i cant stand those who do it and
KNOW they are doing it.

Somebody at the sac on separate incidents.
"you cant sit here somebody's sitting here. when can
you ever get it into your thick skull?"

another time
"why cant i seat here? your name isnt written on it."

and the expression on his face the 2nd time round was
of a guilty one. Yet, the person is surprisingly
*ahem* thick skulled and doesnt go away.

You'd be surprised to know that this is the same person
i was referring to as being a bitch subconsciously.

ive been giving in a lot to people recently.
but they just dont remember. they're like so full of pity on their
faces at the moment i give in, but the next day they forget.

And ive been the one who's "so stubborn and self-centered."
pfft. am i the only one around who remembers every SINGLE
good act people do? maybe.

I crossed the bridge at 7:00 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

TUESDAY.
"dont be a bitch subconsciously.
thats worse than doing it purposely."

PFFFFT, so pissed. some ppl just have it all dont they.
BIG SIGH. now i sound like i complain alot.
but who really makes people complain in the first place?

Beautiful sentences to end a war of vulgarities.

Life loses its point without love.
Love loses its point without life.

"They all say we lose 21 grams when we die - the equivalent of our soul.
Sometimes i feel as if ive lost that 21 grams already."

I crossed the bridge at 5:22 PM

Monday, February 02, 2004

Love he thought was just a breeze,
oh with no emotional fleece.
life he thought was made of dreams,
oh it wasnt as though it really seems.
tried to care for those that were there,
but they left him in cold despair.
wanted to escape from this harsh life,
made up of so much strife.
but was it possible,
only hope makes things probable.
Who knows?
That one day he might make a friend,
he didnt expect to hold his hand.

lalala. im so thoroughly bored am i.
Aye, a happy Hari Raya Haji to all those who celebrate it.
and those who dont. like me.

"this is one issue we cannot get involved in my dear."

I crossed the bridge at 2:48 PM

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