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Thursday, September 20, 2007 i'm feeling quite lost. it's the sense of feeling you get when you lose that grip
in life that you thought you had and now you're spiralling downwards, falling... am i really that cursed? it seems the past always catches up with me somehow. i can never escape it. felt like giving it all up, some really foolish thoughts.. that were so vivid. i really thank the Lord that he always pulls me back from such reckless behaviour. but then, if that's not to be, then what is my destiny? i used to think that everything was based on choices but with the things that have been happening, it feels as if my choices make no impact and perhaps life's really ruled by destiny... i can never get things right somehow... and i should have seen this coming somehow. is all my happiness really meant to be temporary and short-lived? i mean its not like i've not been through this before.. each and everytime the upward slope feels better than before but i should've known its just deceiving me for the bigger fall ahead. i'm really confused.. a thousand things rushing through my mind. i feel really sick, like throwing up. what should i do? |